i went through a season of my life where i really struggled with this. tbh, that struggle has never fully gone away. but i've recently learned to live for an audience of One - and the anxiety i used to feel had pretty much dissolved. sure, i may still overthink things more than i need to, but i've come to understand it's a battle i'm going to have to fight, probably for the rest of my life. and it's one i'm willing to fight, too. <3
Trust me, it gets better! You are at a tough age. You aren’t a kid anymore, but you aren’t an adult either. That was probably the toughest part of my life. There isn’t enough money in the world to convince me to relive that time! Aging brings its own limitations, but I have gotten to the point where I realize other people have their own problems and few have time to care about what I’m wearing or what I’m doing. That realization brings a lot of freedom! I’m not minimizing your current feelings. I understand and know they are very real! Just take deep breaths and know it will get better! ♥️
I have no idea how you have the confidence to post deep thoughts like this for all the world to see... I could never do that. I like to keep my thoughts holed up in my journal, where no one can judge my opinion.
On the outside, when I'm with my friends, I'm very energetic and crazy, but that's because I've known my friends long enough to know that they won't mind. But when I'm with strangers or new people, I tend to close up and become quieter. Sometimes I worry about what random people think of me, but then I kinda flaunt my personality even more as a rebellion against their (potential) judgment.
I only ever truly worry about people judging me when I'm with mixed company, like when I'm with some close friends and some people that I don't really know. I act crazier than usual because I'm with my close friends, but then I worry that the other people will think I'm weird.
ohhh jack how do you manage to replicate the exact feeling of social anxiety into words???
lol so glad it resonated with you :)
danggg that hit hard.
but also like—how you write is so gorgeous and true and just gah why do i love it so much even when it’s about a sadder/deeper topic
tysmmm lol
i went through a season of my life where i really struggled with this. tbh, that struggle has never fully gone away. but i've recently learned to live for an audience of One - and the anxiety i used to feel had pretty much dissolved. sure, i may still overthink things more than i need to, but i've come to understand it's a battle i'm going to have to fight, probably for the rest of my life. and it's one i'm willing to fight, too. <3
this is very meaningful jack, thank you.
Trust me, it gets better! You are at a tough age. You aren’t a kid anymore, but you aren’t an adult either. That was probably the toughest part of my life. There isn’t enough money in the world to convince me to relive that time! Aging brings its own limitations, but I have gotten to the point where I realize other people have their own problems and few have time to care about what I’m wearing or what I’m doing. That realization brings a lot of freedom! I’m not minimizing your current feelings. I understand and know they are very real! Just take deep breaths and know it will get better! ♥️
Thanks for this! Amen!
I have no idea how you have the confidence to post deep thoughts like this for all the world to see... I could never do that. I like to keep my thoughts holed up in my journal, where no one can judge my opinion.
On the outside, when I'm with my friends, I'm very energetic and crazy, but that's because I've known my friends long enough to know that they won't mind. But when I'm with strangers or new people, I tend to close up and become quieter. Sometimes I worry about what random people think of me, but then I kinda flaunt my personality even more as a rebellion against their (potential) judgment.
I only ever truly worry about people judging me when I'm with mixed company, like when I'm with some close friends and some people that I don't really know. I act crazier than usual because I'm with my close friends, but then I worry that the other people will think I'm weird.
yeah this is a perfect description of how it feels ;w;