numb / a fall, so slow
a duology of poems
sometimes, the pain is so strong, all you can do is numb it
the night is closing in, so cold. my weary soul resigns to fate. i drown the ache in the autumn air, yet voices call in whispers bold. they chant my name, my cursed state, and laugh to find me standing there. the mirror hums a silent tune, its shattered face reflects my woe. i trace the cracks with fingers bare. a haunted hymn beneath the moon, a dirge for those who’ve come to know the weight of pain too sharp to bear. the bottles sing, the needles call — a gentle hand, a cruel deceit. they hush the screams but do not care; for every rise, the body falls. and still, the heart forgets to beat, yet finds itself still breathing air.
sometimes, the fall is so slow, you can’t tell where you’re falling
i think i’ve been falling for years, but the ground never comes, i can’t tell if i’m drifting or floating, or sinking so helplessly into a hell, or simply suspended on strings in the air. i hear voices through the unbearable static that comes through my radio, whispering swears, but they’ve never called my name, just uttered empty things, scratching my eardrums like nails down a grave. i do believe i’ve been falling for years now, but i am beginning to have a few doubts that i ever even once stood on my weary feet, upright, unshakeable, upon the ground. perhaps a new day will come, when i see something shining below me, a shimmer of sea that offers a pillow of comfort at first glance — somewhere pleasant to lose all my air.
at first, i was only going to post a fall, so slow, but i’d also recently written numb and since a fall, so slow was pretty short and i felt the two pieces went well together, i decided to publish both.
if you’re wondering what the inspiration behind these poems was, the explanation is in the previous post on this blog: march reads (go check it out if you haven’t already! :). if you read it, you’ll know that i just read sunrise on the reaping, the new hunger games book, which was very depressing. so, while i did add some personal stuff to the pieces, a major inspiration was haymitch abernathy and his experiences as recorded in sunrise on the reaping.
anyways, i hope you enjoyed this little duology of poems, if you will. if you did, giving this post a like will let me know and bring a smile to my face. also, i always love hearing how people interpret my work, so feel free to leave a comment :).
thank you so much for being here. as always, i wish you a wonderful day and i’ll see you next week. much love <3
are u tryna make me cryyyy T-T
ooo i liked a fall, so slow a lot, jack!